respect begets respect?
July 17, 2006
If a person treats you without respect, could it be because you beget that treatment? Does anybody ever deserve to be treated with disrespect at all? Does anybody have the right to regard you with disrespect even if that somebody is someone you love? When you love somebody do you also give that person the right to treat you with disrespect? I think it’s more like you gave them the right to hurt you. But does that include making you feel less of a decent person? Or am I just being too sensitive?
When I love, I give it all, I tell it all. I say what I want and I show what I feel. I swallow my pride and admit to my mistakes. I say sorry and take my part of the blame. But admitting to my mistakes and my weaknesses and insecurities doesn’t give any person the right to make me feel less of a person. I give love and I deserve to be loved back. Loved not for the pleasure I can give but for the person that I am, with all my imperfections. If for you, what you said was a joke, I took it to heart. I can tell a joke from a real one and if it’s indeed a joke, it’s not a good one. And in spite of it all, I didn’t even get a single word of regret from you. A sorry would have done enough. But I guess you think it’s just one of my dramas. But it’s not. Maybe it’s because you never listened to my woes that’s why I keep going on and on and on with them.
Maybe nobody deserves to be treated with disrespect at all. Not from a stranger and most especially not from a loved one. Listening is one way of showing respect. It’s a start. If it evokes a sorry, then that would be great, but if not, I hope at least the listening moved emotions even in the slightest bit.
I know I’m weak but I hope you don’t make me any weaker. Give me strength. Treat me with respect.
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